Hello to those I have not met before and to those I have been with before. I am Luna. Right now I am a child living with brain-injury.
    Every time, I start with these words: I would like to speak not as an instructor, but as an ordinary child, so please listen to what I say as you would listen to the chatter of the child next door.
    Some of you may already know, but I am undergoing a rehabilitation program called the Doman Method. So I receive the influence of the people from their center. I love Dr. Doman and his people, and because of them, there is fulfillment in my life. However, there are times when even they, whom I respect, become the object of criticism. This refers to only a few of the people who have visited my house or the rehabilitation specialists, but it seems that some do not think well of them. Why is this so? Because it costs a lot, because the child's whole day is occupied by rehabilitation, etcetera, etcetera.
    I often cry during rehabilitation. Especially when a new program begins, almost every time, I cry at the start. If someone said, "Look how that child is crying. See, it's not good." Let me ask you then: Is this a misfortune for me?
    Dr. Doman and his associates often say: "Even if we tell you to do this program for one hour, if you think it's best to do it for 59 minutes, please do so. Another thing: "If you can find a better method than ours, please use it. Then teach us. In essence, what matters is that your child gets better." Here let me ask you again: Am I being brainwashed by them?
    I like the word "favorite". I think people take action when their heart feels good. Most of the time, it doesn't work. When you do something out of duty, or because you have to do it. At the very least, I undergo rehabilitation to feel better.
    My state is such that I cannot utter words or move my body freely, and someone from the outside would not recognize the difference compared to my state when I started this rehabilitation. But I know the changes my body has undergone. They are changes that are invisible to others. Now my body is not bent. Before, my left hand had no feeling, but now it most definitely does. I do not take a single one of the drugs I used to take for epilepsy. I used to be hospitalized even for a cold, but now I get better even without medicine. Is my condition getting worse?
    I am not here to defend them. They themselves say that there is no need to defend them. Rather than such defence, parents are told to concentrate on making their brain-injured children better.
    Why did my parents decide to use the Doman Method? They had no previous knowledge about Dr. Doman and his group. Dr. Doman and his group did not persuade them to enter the program. When they heard about the method, my parents decided on their own to try it.
    When people obtain new knowledge, and feel that it is right, they resonate with that idea. Even though in the beginning it is someone else's idea, the moment you resonate with it, it becomes yours. In that sense, in the case of awareness also, when it becomes yours, even if in the beginning it was someone else's, I feel you can convey it as your own words. However, even if people resonate, they are still separate individuals. So I think it is all right not to resonate completely with others. Absorbing the good parts. People can do that.
    If you respect someone, and feel exactly the same, and like the same people, and do the same things, you would be nothing more than a puppet. Everyone has a different experience of life, and the things they have learned are also different. Learning is necessary in order to look at something from different angles, but even then, people feel and think according to the wisdom they have gained in their lives.
    I have always thought that people rely not on the gods of others, but on their own gods. The term "god" may be misleading though. I have always thought it strange that people want others to judge them. Of course, I am happy when people praise me, and enjoy it when people show interest in me. However, no one has ever compared my life with someone else's. It is enough if I can be better than what I am now, without comparing myself with others. What is beautiful is beautiful, what is splendid is splendid, what I like is what I like. I have come to this point just by that. I've lived my life for no more than about eight years though. No matter what others say, I cannot throw away the feeling that I am happy. This is because no matter how humbly I listen to what others say, it is not for others to decide how I feel.
    I think the people who make judgements such as: "It costs money, so they must be a money-making group" or "He's kept so occupied that he doesn't even have time for walks, so his mind cannot develop" or "The child is crying and resisting, and they still go ahead with it. That's cruel" are closing their eyes to many facts, and pass judgement using "common sense" and "good or bad". This comes from lack of knowledge. But to such people, even this is correct in terms of the information they are able to access. If we're only talking about correctness. There are many things in this world that are called good. I think whatever you do, it is good.
    I am just a brain-injured child, and I cannot even eat or go to the toilet by myself. Because I am not independent, in terms of common sense I cause trouble for others. However, my father and mother, and the volunteers who come to our house, seem very happy to look after me. To me, they even look joyful. Are they foolish? What do you think?
    The answer you are thinking of now is yours. You did not think of it because of what I said. I think the answer always lies inside you.
    I do not think you should believe me just because I am speaking here. Even the people who like me are not required to believe me. However, if there are people who resonate with me, that part of us is connected. Only in the parts where the thoughts and emotions feel good.
    I only speak. I do not wish to be judged, and neither do I wish to convince. I simply exist here, and I simply show myself. I would be very happy if the example that is myself can share something with you.
    I am deeply grateful to have met you, even if it was not direct. I continue that rehabilitation that I need to do. Please do not ask why. Please do what you need to do, the things that make you feel good.
    I look forward to seeing you again.
    Thank you very much.

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